Internet Personality

I spend a lot of time on the internet. I always have. When I was about 12-13 I use to love sleeping over at my friends place, because she had the internet. I would stay on till 3 in the morning.
Tragically, it had carried into my older self. Too often I find such awesome things over the net. I could practically live in it, it's like a whole different universe. That being said, I have developed an internet personality. It sounds lame, and I know it, but that's how my internet personality, and I roll. The way it came up, was observing how other people act on the internet. It's quite normal for people to only be a certain type like a troll, newb...etc. and they can be the people that never evolve past that. Why? I don't know. What I do know, is that my personality over the internet has majorly changed since I started going on the net.
When I was younger(I really hate to admit this) I used to be one of those sicko flirting girls. I was totally all about talking to guys and what not. But I had an edge. I didn't like seeing penis or balls on my screen, and I didn't talk about it either. I also constantly told people off, but not in the "go die" kind of way, but more like "your fathers condom broke, and thats how you got here" kind of way.
The internet has lead me to a cruel part of me that I didn't know existed. I made friends over the net, but to the people that angered me, I was the biggest bitch in the internet world. I could make a stone cry I was so hardcore. But, then that's all people knew me as. I realized I found a bit of fame in being a bitch, but the cost was being tired, and being a bitch. It's really tiring to be like that all the time. I don't know how people can do that for longer than an hour.
Since I quit being a bitch, I have found myself leaning over towards being more silly, and smartass. Now, I am only like that to those who are some kind of bully, and go overboard. So lately I've kind of become some kind of protective person. Ah, and the evolution continues. But I know there will always be apart of me that will be a bitch when I have to. Just won't stay that way all the time now.
I might touch up on this later, as I have to go back to work, but for now...that's all she wrote!

Fear of calling strangers or something....

I have been doing great so far in my internship, and everything seems to be progressing really well except for one thing. I have to call strangers to gather more information. For someone like me, it's a bit of a pickle. I have numbers, I'm preparing a guideline/script so that I don't mess up, but I just don't like calling people I don't know. I never have.
A few years ago when the delivery people started coming out with the whole ORDER ONLINE thing, I was so up for that. Since then I haven't called in once to get pizza or anything. If there has to be a call made, I make someone else do it.
I started looking up ways to overcome this fear on the internet, but no such luck. Maybe it's because I worked as a cold caller for a whole week, to try and get people to donate their money. Or the other time I worked about a month at a survey place. The surveys were freakishly long, and I had to tell people it wouldn't take up much of their time.
Thinking about what I have to do isn't that big of a deal anyways, I've contacted these people through email, and they gave me the okay to call, and ask some questions. It's not even like I'm selling them anything.
WHY OH WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME?! I could walk over to their place, meet them face to face, and chat them up like we're the best of friends, but when it comes to calling them...-sigh-
Well, I will be giving it a shot this afternoon. Outside of my little corner in this office. It get's very quiet in here when everyones working, so I was thinking of going into the stairwell to make these calls. Well, I got a peanut butter, and banana sandwich waiting for me, so I'm heading to lunch, after thatI will be trying to make those calls.

Better start putting on my brave face or my game face, and brace myself!

I actually love my job.

See, that doesn't happen to most people in this world.  People grow up thinking, I have to get a good PAYING job that will give me a great life.  That's not how I grew up, I grew thinking about what would make me happy for the rest of my life.  Starting at age 12, I came to a decision.  Film.  I loved film, and knew almost nothing about it, but when I made the decision to work in the Film Industry, I started to really get involved.  I watched movies with commentaries, I research all over the internet, and I became an extra just to get on an actual set.  All those years of work have paid off.  I am in a Fantastic program called New Voices, and things have not been better in a very, very long time!  I feel so thankful to have been accepted, and now I may actually get the chance to find work in the industry because I have skills, and contacts to do it!
I'm so excited for my future.  How many people these days can say that?